Hi mosschops,
Your posts reflect the way many of us feel, I can never feel comfortable with P and will always hide it. When summer comes, following my usual course of UVB, I'm ready to take on the world .. but then P begins to come back ... and my arthritis plays up .. and I count the days till summer comes round again.
You are beautiful and I'm glad your girls remind you of that ... unconditional love brings out the best in all of us - and when you're having a bad day, your girls are the pick-me-up you need to be reminded of what truly is important.
Glad MTX is worthing for you and hope someday soon you get your wish and don't have to hide away any longer.

Hugs
BB