Friday night

[luk]

Hi friends,
It's friday night here. I'm sitting and thinking.
Summer is over. My skin was kind of OK during the summer.
Well it's nothing really bad now but it's just frustrating. I know I'm not saying anything new but still.
Why is it coming back? Spots which got pretty much cleared because (I guess) of the sun are coming " back to life" again.
I can think and think but still can not find the reason why.
I mean there is nothing to cause it. Why is this happening ?

I thought many times , what did I do? Did I eat something bad , did I do something wrong. Did I get to stressed?
No , nothing really happened. Like the Psoriasis lives it's own life which you are not allowed to control at all.

Right now I'm switching between being upset and try to calm down myself. I desparetly, as everyone here, try to find "something". Well there is nothing.
Honestly I can not accept the fact that my skin ( or something in my body) is doing whatever it wants.
It's just like fighting something you can not fight.
I don't know . I told myself and tried many times to stop thinking about it. Well even if I did after a while I came back to it and realized that nothing changed.

Sorry for all this but I just had the need to tell.

I'm quitting believe in anything- ointments, drugs, diets, stress even the sun and optimism.
The only one thing I can think of is to surrender and accept it.
Well I've never learned this and I just can not do it. I wish I could.

I just feel very frustrated tonight. Not because my P got a little bit worse but because it's just not fair. You don't get any ,not a single thing, to protect yourself.
I just can not smile and pretend it's not there. And I really admire people who can do it.

What are we doing wrong?

Thanks for reading.
Luk

[ladyd]

Luk,  
Please don't feel down, I know it totally sucks to have p, but you must keep battling you will beat it!! Have faith and keep searching for your answer.
Diana

[luk]

Thank you Dianne.
I keep trying.
luk

[Guy]

Hey Luk

I know its poop but we cannot let it destroy us - we are worth more than that.  I know how frustrating it can be but its worse to give into it.

One day there will be more effective drug treatments (lets hope not too far into the future) meanwhile lets keep as on top of it as we can.

thinking of you mate

Guy  

[Des]

Luk, I know exactly where you're coming from - I've been there myself many a time.

But there's a lot more to us than just skin, isn't there? As a matter of fact, there's a lot more than just skin  to everybody... Good guys get P, bad guys get P; and the fact of having P doesn't make them any less or any more good or bad guys, right?

We're all who we are, and that's just the way it is - and you haven't "done anything wrong", that's not the way p works :-/

And you're so right, it isn't fair. I think we can all agree on that. But the bad things in life don't rule out the good - and they're there, you can be sure of that


Please don't quit believing in hope and optimism - they're what keep the wheels turning

Take care - (((big hug)))

Des

[luk]

Thank you all so much.
I'm sorry for my bad mood . I just had to tell you.

It feels good to have you!!!!!

Thanks
Luk

[GaryS]

Luk

hey there - I am sure we all know about bad moods!!!

P is a swine and while there is no outright cure (yet), I have faith that there will be.... I beleive there are clever people out there who want to help.....

Maybe I am a little crazy too (it helps!)... but I when ever I get down I always try to think of how much I have in my favour... of how bad things could be ... I have my arms, my legs, my sight, my hearing... It doesn't always work, but it can help to put things in perspective....

And hey, if you can't shake the mood, eat some chocolate!

It also helps to know that there are people like you who get the same desperations as I do..... The only way is up!

[Dani]

Hey Matey,

I know you lot probably just think I'm one of those crazy people that makes sense only some of the time (which woud be true) but I have something to say bout Luk's post.

    [size=24][glb] ;DKEEP SMILING!!!! [/glb][/size]

I know it sounds like complete bull sh*t but trust me, it works. And there's nothing better for P than to feel happy about yourself. Oh and quitting work would help... I'm joking, please don't do that!

Luvs u all

Baby D