Bad p day.

[Ana]

Hello everyone. Got up this morning and felt a bit down so decided I'd write here because it often comforts me to read what everyone else writes about p, so I thought I'd share a few of my thoughts. I'm just so fed up with the control it has over my life. Either I treat it with creams, which draws my attention to it every morning and night, and means I check on it every five minutes all day to check for improvements, and/ or I restrict my diet so that every single item of food I eat I wonder what effect it is having on my p (once again drawing my attention to it). I was so aware of that last night when I went out for a meal. As I read through the menu, I was thinking, 'what would be good for my p?', instead of 'what would I like to eat?'. Now would someone mind telling me exactly how I'm meant to have any sort of normal life when everything I do is monitored for p. I can't wear certain clothes because they show the red marks, I can't have short hair because you'd see the marks on my neck, I even keep pulling at the sleeves on my jumper just incase it rides up and a red mark is exposed. Right now it's coming up on my face, which is really effecting me as there's no way I can hide it anymore. I know I should be stronger and just ignore it, but I'm fed up with trying to feel certain ways just because of p. I want to have my own emotions in their own right, not because I have a stupid skin condition.
Anyway, that's my rant. Sorry for going on. I just feel really alone with this now.
Take care,
Ana.

[luk]

Hi Ana,
It's very interesting. I had very simular feelings last night when I posted my threat to the Recreation room.
I can not stop thinking about my P except when I'm sleeping.
Contolling it almost every second just to realize that nothing helps.
But you are not alone. I think most of us here have the same thoughts. Even if we feel fine and OK somewhere deep inside there are the thoughts  and depressing feeling of hopeless situation. Because we just don't know how to live with P. How to fight it. What to do.
I would like to say  : be positive and blablabla.
Well sometimes it is just impossible and the P take over again and again.
But again, you are not alone.
I think it helps to share with people here whatever feelings you have . Just literally , excuse me, "throw up" all the frustration from what we have to go through because of our skin.

Luk
 

[Guy]

Dear Ana

Sounds like you've had a bad day or so with the p - sorry that its c**p at the moment.

I know all about covering it up and opting for "de-toxing" foods to help the skin and getting completely fed up with having p and having to treat it.  But treat it somehow we must - even if just to keep it moisturised.

Blow out have whatever you want to eat and treat yourself to something that you love - clear your head of the p worries - even if its for a few hours - at the cinema or on a favourite walk somewhere.

Most of all try not to let it take you over.

Take care
All the best
guy  

[Des]

Hi Ana

I'm sorry to hear you're having a down time - and don't feel alone, we're all here, and we know what you're going through.  :-/

I know the feeling of trying to work around my P 24/24, 7/7.... but, y'know, I've found that's not necessary. It's not so much the P itself that has control over our emotions, but our own way of seeing ourselves.... Try to remember that - for me, it really helped realizing that people around me didn't really give a hoot whether I had P or not, my  main prob was in my own head, always thinking about how other people might see me. Once I knew that, it became much easier to open up to other emotions than just those about P

And don't feel you have to be strong all the time either - nobody can keep his shoulders squared at all times. So, when you're having a rough time, you're very welcome to come here to let off some steam - that's what this place is all about


Take care, all the best

Des

[Ana]

Thanks for your messages. I feel so much better knowing others have similar feelings. I do feel better today, am having a day in London and I'm going to do my very best to forget all about p for a few hours!    Hope you're all having nice relaxing weekends,
love Ana.

[Alison]

ana sorry ur havein a s**te time of it , we all have those times when everything revolves around the p .

hope u have a gr8 time n london
take care n b lucky