Depression

[Raf]

Bump.

Often, very often, I feel nothing. Like a blank canvass. I could conceivably do or be anything but nothing stirs me and I wonder "why?". That's depression.

[Wrdaws]

Hi there

as an ex depression sufferer it not easy to kick it but on saying that I've never really been dianosed with depression but I know I've had cause I had thoughts of death but fortunately I have always had a good group of friends around me keeping me going and keeping me busy. So I never did get any closer then thoughts of it but now it's different cause without any one of them even noticing i've gone from being helped to doing the helping I managed to kick it once but now it tryin to come back but I'm fighting it and this time it's not going to take over my life the fact is in a couple mouths I should be clear of P currently having UVB and one of friends is also trying to help me as well I don't know how I do beat it but it just kinda happens so sorry I can't really help all can say is keep a good set of friends around and hopefully they'll help u without even realising it

Regards

wrdaws

[emmajaine]

Hi all, just feeling a bit low currently and feel the need to offload. I don’t really know where to start with this, so it is probably going to be a bit disjointed and rambling, for which I apologise.

I’m 29 years old and work as a teacher, which has always been my dream job, however I’m finding it increasingly difficult to go into work, as one of the people I work with, I feel, doesn’t like me.  There is nothing specific that she has or hasn’t done, its just a general feeling.  It makes it hard to face her and even to say something to her about how I feel, as she has done nothing wrong.  I’m not going to be in my current school for much longer as my contract is up at the end of June, so I’m trying to apply for other jobs, but my confidence is pretty shot, as I’m wondering if I really have what it takes to be a teacher and deal with the people I work with effectively.  Things have been slipping my mind recently and I admit that there are things that I should have told her which I forgot to, and when she pointed it out I realised she was right, but I didn’t do it on purpose, but I keep thinking about it and it makes me feel sick.  I don’t want to eat at the moment and am having some trouble sleeping at night.  My great Gran passed away last Thursday, and although we weren’t particularly close, it has brought up lots of memories about my granddad who I was very close to who died last year.  I feel on the verge of tears a lot, in fact today at work I broke down in tears and ended up coming home.  I have spent the day doing nothing, and feel really useless as there are lots of things at home that I could have done (general house work type things and job applications) which I know would have made me feel like I had achieved something but I haven’t done anything and now I feel guilty. Things about work have kept popping into my mind and I keep questioning whether I have told my colleague this or that and then feeling sick at the thought that I haven’t and wondering how I am going to tell her when I see her tomorrow.  I know that the best thing to do would be to talk to her about how I have been feeling, but I don’t know that I can do that.  I just keep thinking that I only have a limited time left working with her and that I should just be able to ‘suck it up’ and get on with my job.  I don’t really know what I expect to come from this and how anoyone can advise or help me but I think just writing it down as helped and I don’t want to just delete this as that would make it seem what I have written not important enough to warrant being read, when I know that I do deserve to be heard, but none of my friends are around tonight and I figured this would be the next best thing.

Thanks for reading

Emma

[babyblue]

Hi all, just feeling a bit low currently and feel the need to offload. I don’t really know where to start with this, so it is probably going to be a bit disjointed and rambling, for which I apologise.

I’m 29 years old and work as a teacher, which has always been my dream job, however I’m finding it increasingly difficult to go into work, as one of the people I work with, I feel, doesn’t like me.  There is nothing specific that she has or hasn’t done, its just a general feeling.  It makes it hard to face her and even to say something to her about how I feel, as she has done nothing wrong.  I’m not going to be in my current school for much longer as my contract is up at the end of June, so I’m trying to apply for other jobs, but my confidence is pretty shot, as I’m wondering if I really have what it takes to be a teacher and deal with the people I work with effectively.  Things have been slipping my mind recently and I admit that there are things that I should have told her which I forgot to, and when she pointed it out I realised she was right, but I didn’t do it on purpose, but I keep thinking about it and it makes me feel sick.  I don’t want to eat at the moment and am having some trouble sleeping at night.  My great Gran passed away last Thursday, and although we weren’t particularly close, it has brought up lots of memories about my granddad who I was very close to who died last year.  I feel on the verge of tears a lot, in fact today at work I broke down in tears and ended up coming home.  I have spent the day doing nothing, and feel really useless as there are lots of things at home that I could have done (general house work type things and job applications) which I know would have made me feel like I had achieved something but I haven’t done anything and now I feel guilty. Things about work have kept popping into my mind and I keep questioning whether I have told my colleague this or that and then feeling sick at the thought that I haven’t and wondering how I am going to tell her when I see her tomorrow.  I know that the best thing to do would be to talk to her about how I have been feeling, but I don’t know that I can do that.  I just keep thinking that I only have a limited time left working with her and that I should just be able to ‘suck it up’ and get on with my job.  I don’t really know what I expect to come from this and how anoyone can advise or help me but I think just writing it down as helped and I don’t want to just delete this as that would make it seem what I have written not important enough to warrant being read, when I know that I do deserve to be heard, but none of my friends are around tonight and I figured this would be the next best thing.

Thanks for reading

Emma

Emma, I'm sorry I had not read this before now .. for some reason it escaped my unread posts till this morning.  I do hope you are feeling much better.  There are always gonna be people we won't see eye to eye with, and they of course will point out our failings - we all have those too, so don't beat yourself up about it.  If she is constantly making you feel inadequate, she's reflecting her own feelings with regard to herself.  As you said you are there for a short period and hopefully can move to a new post when the school year begins in September.  Meantime, take some time out for you, do things that you enjoy doing - and get to see your GP to tell him how you've been feeling lately.  Everyone needs a pick-me-up every now and then, it's not a sign of weakness to admit it and it will take a little time for the pills to kick in, so try to do that without delay and don't suffer alone.  Glad you've got friends in real life with whom you can confide as well; whilst online support is terrific and we sometimes can offload things we wouldn't say to our best friends, there's nothing like that real hug, or a friendly chat over a cuppa to help work things thru.

And I'm glad you've posted too and not deleted - there are many of us with similar feelings quite frequently, we need support till we can 'go it alone' again, so well done babes, you've made this important step, now follow it up with a GP visit.

Hugs for you
BB

[rebgv1]

take the salmon fish oil pill, look for those that says molecularly distilled.  Take heavier dosage to start wiht. It works for me

[Willium]

Leaving in the world means U'll must suffer from Depression. Some of them a large or some of a little.
Depression is common but very serious. Every person like suffering from  depression must need a treatment. But some time the result is nothing. Ex. "P" suffers...=me . But don't break down or take any decisions negatively. Remember positive thinking will replace negative thoughts as your depression responds to treatment. Expect your mood to improve gradually, not immediately. Do not expect to suddenly "snap out of" your depression. Be cool and join friends,parties,movies Just like me or Keep a cell phone near u and call any one (minimum 200calls per day). Thorough away the Depression And just rocking man..

Life is for cheering not For Depression..

[sanahenk]

I listen to a few songs everyday, watch comedy movies, and try to love everything around me to stay stress free, and I fight against depression in this way.

[Darren.]

well its official diagnosed depression again 

i dont know what or how im feeling but i do know i was doing alright considering everything, then one extra thing pushes me over the edge

well i do know one thing to how im feeling its not p that pushed me into depression, but i am worried about the treatments effecting my p again as it did before

people wanted to know how much i can take, now we have the answer

[John Boy]

well its official diagnosed depression again 

i dont know what or how im feeling but i do know i was doing alright considering everything, then one extra thing pushes me over the edge

well i do know one thing to how im feeling its not p that pushed me into depression, but i am worried about the treatments effecting my p again as it did before

people wanted to know how much i can take, now we have the answer

and how many bottles of vodka did you get on prescription

[Fusion]

To overcome Depression always try to stay in touch with cheerful people.And try to read books on various story related Bravery steps made by historical people.Best of luck.