Mr Jingles - (((((((BIIIIIG CYBERHUG)))))))))!
I'm so sorry to hear you're having a hard time
As Guy says, it's a good thing that you know that it has more to do with how you see yourself than how others see you - but I know how very depressing it can be to get up in the morning, looking in the mirror, and seeing someone else than you thought you were.... :-/
And I agree, many GPs don't understand (as a matter of fact, most people who have never experienced it, don't understand
).
Is it an option to find another GP who thinks a bit more about his patients and a bit less about his book?
I also agree that it would be a good idea to try to get yourself out there anyway, even though it seems scary at first. You will soon notice how most people take very little notice of the P at all, And that should help your confidence.... I've been there, when my P first started, I was afraid even to go and get a coffee in the canteen at work - spent 4 months in my room, only getting coffee when someone brought me one :-/ (not a usual situation for me!
) Decided against it in the end, going out.... and realizing nothing had changed really... it was all in my head.
Right at the mo, my face P is at the worst it's ever been :-/ - and I too feel like hiding in a little dark corner now and then. But then I think, life is just too short to do that - so many lovely people and things out there, it's not for that darn P to take that away from us!
Take care, do try to keep happy
And you know we're here if you need a shoulder, OK?
Des
