fall

[Islander]

I fell yesterday... covered in bruises and so sore...managed to hurt my shoulder, ribs, hip, knee, shin, ankle and toes all in one bask! hit off the kitched table as I went down too...i cried for about an hour. im so sore and fed up... i used to have trouble with persistent headaches and the constant pain drove me to the edge...the only thing that stopped me doing anything stupid was that maybe tomorrow the pain would stop, maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow... but with this, this is for life and i dunno how i can deal with that. the pain has always bothered me with the pa and ive had low points but ive always been able to shrug it off an dhave a laugh about what a moody cow i am, or that im turning into an old woman...but i feel like i've fallen into a pit. like i've only just realised this is forever... im just so...sad.feel like im running on empty and dont know how much morte i can take.  i dont want or need counselling, been down that road several times. think i just need to get my head round this... but yeh.

[riaY]

Oh love I'm so sorry you're having a cr*p time (((((((  ))))))) Sometimes you feel that there's no end to this and yes I'm afraid it is here for life but it won't always be as bad as today. Not only are you in pain but the shock of the fall makes a big difference too. There will be many better/more positive days I promise. Don't forget you're not alone there's a lot of people on here that care about you. I'm always here if you need to talk/rant/cry or whatever  ria

[Islander]

Thanks ria... my husband was great. I just kinda lay on the floor in shock and my huband ran through and picked me up. He even made my tea which he has never done in 8 years together!!he suffers from depression and he found it difficult to be there but he stepped up so i was very greatful.i spent the rest of the day in my PJs and snuggled up with him onthe couch...which was when i just started sobbing... im usually a very positive happy person but im struggling to pull myself out of this... i know itll be ok and ill get betetr and have better days, just cant see the light at the end of the tunnel just now.

[riaY]

They can come up trumps sometimes can't they?  I have frequent falls so I know how this can affect you and not just in a physical sense  Ther's IS a light at the end of that tunnel but it sometimes seems like a very very long tunnel. It's so hard to stay positive and impossible to do it all the time. Don't beat yourself up for feeling down and not being able to "pull yourself together" (I hate that saying with a vengeance!) You'll get there. 

[Islander]

i know i will and i know in so many ways im so lucky. but it have me a fright and made me face up to this a bit and...i just dont want to! just having a bit of a "poor me"day today  thanks ria...it helps when u know other people get you

[Darren.]

its a tough one i had a fall today too pain in my hip then my legs gave way so i ended up a heap on the ground

got picked up by a couple of co workers which they are now ribbing me for cos i am the first aider 

you say you dont want or need councelling, ive been through the road of that several times before too but i do find one particular councelling helps

its not your regular run of the mill councelling where they go into family and the usual hip hop traits

this is more emotional control councelling which looks at you as a person, finding and exploring triggers as to what makes our own personal mind works and with the body too

i find it hard to explain this one as some people think its nuts  which i am but in seriousness it does help

[Islander]

thanks... i've had lots of diss types of councelling over the years as I suffered from depression between the ages of 13 and 21. apart from this im finally in a good place...just sometimes i need to have a bit of a pity party... thanks for the advice tho
i know i'll get through this, just some days are harder than others...and waiting for appts doesnt help... sigh...

[babyblue]

Hi Mrs T.,

We've all been there, I'm so careful and had convinced myself I was pretty much ok till I fell earlier this year ... it was such a shock and although I've recovered and am out and about daily, I'm more aware of how frail I actually am ... and that makes me a bit annoyed at times - not with others - just with myself.  I think I should be stronger, I'm wonderful at providing advice to others, good advice but rarely follow it.

Its all a learning curve and we slip up every now and then.  We are only human after all.  Don't be too hard on yourself, have that cry, moan, rant or whatever makes you feel better, snuggle up again today on couch and take it easy till those pains and aches following the fall go away.  We all deal with our own issues in our own time; counselling is only beneficial if you sign up to it and feel you need it, otherwise, its a complete waste of time and effort.  Sometimes all we need is a warm cuppa, a soothing few words and a big fluffy hug!

Hugs
BB

[moanalot]

Hi, Thats makes two of us in the same boat. I am only just recovering from my fall.
Hope you recover from it.......

[Islander]

Thanks BB!

Hi moan...it was the day after i read about your fall that it happened! it's funny, I didint really consider myself disabled but filling out the DLA form I realised that actually, I've been struggling a lot and adapting my life style to hide what a problem its been...and i didnt feel weak or frail cause i put on a bit of weight and considered myself to be quite bulky...but when i really look at my life, i am quite fragile, and i cover up by problems in a multitude of ways... bitof a shock to me i guess :S also...still realllly sore today. meh